Random

Random Things...

I'm irrationally offended by the overuse of punctuation. One exclamation point will do. Unless you are on fire.

I would have made a really shitty pioneer.

I love to wakeboard. Almost as much as figure skating.

I hate the sound of balloons popping

I can sleep...anytime, any day, anywhere.

I don't think I could start my morning without GoodMorningAmerica :)

I miss my little cousins more than anyone could ever imagine.

I wish my mom didn't have to work anymore...she deserves so much more than what is.

My brother will always be the smartest man alive... to me.

CPR classes should not last a hour & 45 min. That is just nonsense...esp when you used to have a card and just let it go out of date.

I wish my vacuum knew how to use itself. Its the only thing around my house I hate to do.

People who are not motivated aggravate me like no other.

Obama taking his time out of a press conference, about health care reform, to state that a white policeman acted stupidly because one of his black friends was arrested by him, was retarded. Stay on topic. & believe it or not....everything is not always about race.

Tybee Island sounds really good right now ;)


Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

all of the wrong times...all of the right things

Just because you take the easy road doesn't make it the right way. One of my best friends reminded me of this yesterday. We sat down on the cement bench with our feet in the sand. The music from the band and conversations blurred together as we looked down at the ground and started talking. The stars and moon reflected off of the lake...it felt like a perfect summer night.

My friends from LC have a way of making me see things how they should be...and how they shouldnt be. They keep me in check, to say the least. They make me feel special, needed, and loved.

I catch myself feeling torn between that old life with them and my new life I have started after high school. I feel upset cause I dont know where I fit in anymore. I feel like im over so much about LC until I come home and spend time with my girls and guys that I love so much. We are family, we always have been. They own my heart...it hurts being away from them. They can make me smile on my worst days. I just feel like I have left all of that behind...all of it but them. They are the type of people who are still my friends even though I have messed up so much. They make me want to go back and do it all over...better.

"If you have always taken the easy road, been able to walk and run away...then you always will. Unless you want something more...then that changes"

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

Tybee Island

Tybee- to me means more than most can imagine. It brings back so much that is taken away day after day. Things I realize after my trip...( in random order)


-I cannot roll up a sleeping back the correct way. But I still got the cover over it.

- No matter how many years pass I will still know every word to Backstreet Boys 'I want it that way'. & it still made me feel just as good as it used.

- I don't like sand...it gets everywhere. The ocean water makes you sticky and nasty. But going to the beach with people you love makes all that go away.

- Fireworks are not as good unless you watch them with someone you love...actually things in general don't have the same spark as they would normally if your significant other was there.

- My dog will always be the sweetest pitbull I have ever met.

-State troopers who pull you over for speeding and STILL dont give you a ticket must be having a good day...so just smile and take your warning

- I can load and unload my car all by myself...no matter how heavy the load

- Walking at night at Tybee can clear my head easier than anything else.

-Beware- people with Jesus fish on the back of their cars CANNOT DRIVE.

-Girls that say they hate drama will ALWAYS create drama

- No matter what people say...you are who you are, you like what you like. You are not here to please anyone but yourself. And while your doing all of that you come out happy...nothing else should matter.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

Silly Girl No More :)

Now, I had one of the worst weekends ever, but I'm definitely not drowning in it anymore. I know others just don't care and move on, but me, I need to cry. Fighting it, or even smiling through it, can lead to some very scary times. So my inner six year old threw a special little tantrum regarding fairness - or the lack thereof .

I must say, to my best friend Mandy, that you have made me feel even more grateful for you everyday, even more than I EVER have. The non-judging, supportive, wonderful person who chose to share her time with me. She always understands what I feel, and her first thoughts are of comforting - not shaking.

And that was that. I suddenly felt very silly for having put in so much time worrying about these feelings. Totally unnecessary. I was only trying to be agreeable! The details aren't important, but when it comes to choosing between understanding others shortcomings and just letting go, I've gone with just letting go. I have learned its better than fighting the inevitable.

I only have time to pray about the situations and the people they entail...no longer dwelling on them.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

Round & Round

You spin so fast its making you sick. Round and round till its so blurry the colors run together. It went on like that, my whole life...until one day I couldn't tell if I was on the ground or still spinning...

Some people whose behavior could, at best, be described as amoral, and at worst, just a hair shy of deliberately cruel. Thats not you, not for one second. And because at the time, you were too busy hating yourself for not having enough of a backbone, you didn't deal with things. Not really. One day, years later, you will wake up and realized you were mad. Really, bone-deep angry.Then and only then will you quit hating yourself long enough to find yourself...and be you.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

New Way With An Old Voice

I told how I felt. I let my feelings out of the misconbobulated nonsense of my life. Once I let it out I found a small part of myself I used to know. He may have heard me and understood. He may have decided I was just like the rest of them – another black-hatted villain in his serial melodrama. But my guess is the latter, since I haven’t heard another word. I should be sorry or worried. I know I should. But mostly, I am relieved. And no longer disappointed in myself for how good that feels.

Im getting it together...slowly, but I am. I am finding my old self with everyday that passes. I miss that girl. In more ways than one. It feels better everyday finding my way with my old voice.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

Let Love Live

The hardest thing is loving someone and then having the courage to let them love you back. But if you know her shit and she knows yours, and at the end of the day if you still would rather give up than try, nothings ever going to be worth it. Maybe think about it this way... you go back, you get to spend the rest of your life having really great makeup sex. Life is not about the party, or how many places you can go out to that night. At the end of the day its about who you go home with and what kind of relationship you have with them. Because at the end of that day, they're the ones that need to matter. Thats what its about...having the love and courage to let love live.

"Suddenly, a familiar song. And, you're off your chair in one, exquisite movement... wondering, searching, sniffing the wind like a dapple deer. Has God heard your little prayer? Will Cinderella dance again? And then, suddenly, the crowds part and there he is: sleek, stylish... radiant with charisma."

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3