Faith In Possibility <3

Relationships in your life are meant to change you. They are lessons to be learned in disguise. Everyone you meet will be your mirror and another chance for you to grow. Whether you embrace this or not is up to you. I selfishly hope that you will be forced to keep up your growth for many, many moons on this matter...because you will in fact grown into a better person.

I'm also one blessed lady. The worry over my life in the near future is real. The worry over lessons to be learned is VERY real. But being part of a "we" makes it somehow less scary. And adjustment periods or no, I know when my they say that whatever happens, i'll be okay, it's true. We will continue to grow from each others lessons and balance each other from days to come. Sure, it'd be even better if I knew the guy I was ending up with were like, 97 years old, a billionaire, and taking his last breaths from an oxygen tank. But I'll take the lessons I can get ;)

And that is that. Do not think that for one single second have I taken it for granted. Instead of wishing for the demise of a happy relationship, maybe you could see this as proof that good things are sure to come? Lucking into certain things have restored my faith in possibility.
I'd like to pass a bit of that on, if I can.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

collection of pieces

Tonight is the perfect night. I have no picture to go with this blog because there is no need for one.

I'm looking off the hard wood porch onto the most beautiful scene I have ever seen. The night is peaceful and the winds have died down. The only sound I hear is the crashing of the waves onto the tan sandy shore. Now the wind has picked up ...just enough to blow my hair back. I can see the lighthouse in front of me as it turns for the long lost ships coming home. The sky has shades of dark blue, burnt orange, with just enough pink to know the sun has disappeared, and the darkest of purples to line the bottom.

Being out here makes you peaceful, calm, and collected. It is so far from the busy day to day that it makes you let go of everything so you can enjoy what is. Something about the beach makes me rethink things in my life. It brings the pieces together to make one whole me.

This half of a week has made me realize so many amazing things about my life;

my mom is the MOST amazing person I have ever known. to think back to all of the things she has done for my brother and me ( from big to small) has amazed me.

my grandmother has been one of the most patient people in my life. she has watched me jump off the diving board 6896803652065 bagillion times in the same way but still always clapped and cheered. she was there playing solitaire all day upstairs on the computer just because I didn't want to play barbies up there alone. she made gingerale into champagne. the smell of coffee and bacon will always remind me of her house in the mornings when mom had to drop me off before work. Grits with a slice of cheese, and butter came from her...so much of me came from her...

Its random things like that I think about while watching waves at night. I collect my life... all the pieces it may be in, pray, and try to be a better collection of me.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

p.s.-watching a sunset is VERY overrated... esp when your alone

Neverland

I stepped over my piles of messiness and crawled into my bed. As I pulled my curly dark hair into a ponytail, I recalled several moments through the week I have tried to leave behind. I said nothing. At the very most the memories were like thoughts of of the Lost Boys. Not classy enough to be Peter Pan, though.

Their are some who would have felt bad, I know, and I would never blame them. But it’s like I said, enough is enough. Even Wendy finally abandoned Neverland when she got tired of the games and the reality that others would never grow up.

Darkness filled the corners of the bedroom. Only the light of my single candle lit parts of the room.

I will never bother to lie about it. Then I will leave, resenting growing up less, because Neverland is a place that requires a certain amount of naiveté to sustain its charm.

And it will be a very long time before I’m able to play make-believe again


Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3