It's not who you want to spend Friday night with, it's who you want to spend all day Saturday with.

Mr. Emotionally Unavailable, meet Ms. Emotionally Damaged.
A little cliche' but common.

Tommy: "You know what I discovered - it's not who you want to spend Friday night with, it's who you want to spend all day Saturday with...feel me Felix?"
Dylan: "Yeah, I get it Tommy."
Tommy: "Yeah, you don't. I'm out." (jumps in his boat)
Dylan: "You have a boat?!'
Tommy: "I live in Jersey, and I ain't taking no ferry - unless it's out to dinner and a show!"




Words of wisdom from Tommy, without question. Friday night: Slam Piece. Saturday All Day: Relationship.

Friends with Benefits.

ann anise

It seems like the simplest concept: just push them all away and you’ll never get hurt.

 

However, the simplest isn’t always the most effective.

Someday, somebody’s going to find their way in, and they’re going to leave you on your knees.

nise.

It may have just been a moment to you, but it changed every single one that followed for me. Ian Thomas

          A few things should be pointed out here, and I'm not saying any of these things because I have countless thoughts running through my head, although the multitude of thoughts are slowly driving me crazy, anyone would point out the same if they were the one in my shoes. By all means, try to follow this erratic writting session, but fair warning now.

          Learning a life lesson is never fun. Actually, it's about as much fun as if your parents took you to the county fair and made you sit from afar while you watched the other kids play. However, if the county fair was anything like the one in Lincolnton, you wouldn't have missed much. But that's beside the point.

          Trusting someone, anyone for that matter, after you have learned a few life lessons can seem like an act of Congress. No, I do not believe in making people in your present and future pay for the mistakes of the many who did not make it further than your past. However, that mantra can be hard to follow at times. 

          Recently, it has come to my attention that I know a good number of people but most never really touch me. The reason for that is because I do not let people get close enough to where they could hurt me. My wall is up 99.9% of the time, unless I find myself at a breaking point. At that moment, and only then, is when I choose to talk to family or a close friend about why my hardened heart has melted like a Hershey's candy bar left out in the sun on the hottest day of summer.

          I understand this is no way to act but up until recently, I never cared enough to even want to try and let someone in. I know you can't imagine it right now but rolling my eyes in sarcasm at the very thought of the quote, "& Then you meet that one person and your life is changed," was a daily thing. And just like anything else, that came back to bite me in the butt. Oh, the life lessons learned, on top of meeting someone by chance, plus that one random person changing your world, and in turn making your guard come tumbling down like the Berlin Wall, 1989.

ann anise.

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges. Joseph Newton

         My hair has been out of control...much like an eight-year-old boy who just rolled out of bed on Saturday morning. My mind? Of course, that was off in another area code. I was finally alone, sitting on the couch, and free to replay the last few weeks in my head as many times as my heart desired. At the risk of sounding or acting dumb, I wanted to make sure I had everything in perspective before I jumped into any conversation. At the chance the wrong someones might read this, I wont go into further detail. 

          To say it has been a trying few weeks would be the understatement of the year. However, I take comfort in knowing God watches over me, I have been through much worse, and He will never give me anything I can not handle. Even when I doubt my abilities, family and friends never do. That's peace of mind I carry with me daily. I will leave my feelings confined to this blog post, as I also did with the past month, and not look back.

nise.