I thank my God every time I remember you. Philippians 1:3

I have found...

my heart. my faith. true friends. what really matters....and what never did. my sanity. my nerve. my gift with kids and animals alike. how much certain people in life mean to me. I cannot function without Google from day to day. answers to questions. clothes lost in my closet. good deals. mean people. amazing friends. broken spirits. tired souls. love. need to be original. I am not random to anyone in my life. the blessings God has sent me. a way to open my eyes and see His grace. that the best nights are the ones that leave me wanting more. most don't surprise me anymore. happiness. I am not the same person I was once upon a time. I enjoy doing the same things I picked on my mother and grandmother for doing when I was little. my drive to stay up late at night is zero...without motivation. its rare for MOST people to hold my interest for long. no makeup and a ponytail is my second nature. its getting easier to let things go. fighting to make a choice will drive me bananas. putting my trust in Gods hands is the ONLY way. I am a lot stronger than I ever thought I was :)

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

Coming SOON To A Theater Near YOU.

Im not sure if im just on mental overload or im just really confused.

Maybe im not confused at all. Maybe I see it very clearly and the situation is very straight forward...or maybe I just wish for that.

At any rate there is nothing I can do from the distance where I stand...or maybe there is...maybe there is an abundance of things that could change the outcome...but maybe theres not.

I feel a lot of thinking, maybe a disdainful grimace, followed up by a prayer coming soon.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once. Jennifer Yane

To my dismay, I had to walk away.

Turned my head around- made my limbs carry heavy feet across the ground.

A heart screaming with panic but my head never faltered.

Knowing my place, I hid my heart- never showing my face.

The path I walk has changed me so- it's unbelievable.

But walking away is inconceivable.

My faith will continue to keep me strong

and certain omission will carry me along.

I found a piece that was left behind

Maybe a part that I wasn’t looking to find.

I live for that feeling of awareness once more.

But until that day- I will just have to continue to pray.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

Well Butter My Butt & Call Me Biscuit

Southern girls are God's gift to the entire male population. There is absolutely no woman finer than one raised below the mason-dixon line, and once you go southern, may the good Lord help you never go back.
Kenny Chesney

In the past few months I have started to realize that originating in Lincolnton has a lot to do with my current standard of living. People in the south are just different, each in their own.

This is how I grew up and random things I remember.

Waking up at grandmas on the weekends with her fixing me grits with butter and cheese <3

Stained glass windows in church every Sunday.

Ridding horses all around the back woods making trails.

Momma outside pulling weeds and me inside doing laundry.
On the lake every weekend :)

Fishing down at the pond with grandma every afternoon with leftover frozen hotdogs.
CJ & I ridding my horse-falling off-and hitting a truck that was parked at my grandpas shop.
(I busted the glass-CJ broke the grill-go big or go home.) haha
Playing the piano for the family every Thanksgiving.

Watching WWF-now WWE with my brother every Monday night.
Staying up till one in the morning watching TV wearing my grandmas silk pj's that drug the floor.
Ridding 'FoWillas' around Soap Creek and going muddin with the guys.

Megan & I waking up at six in the morning to go ride horses.

Pulling off my grandpas shoes when he came in at night.

Two amazing proms with two great friends that I went with each year.

My naturally blonde hair turning green during the summer because I stayed in the pool so much.

Wrecking the dirt bike and scarring my knee up.

Tybee Island, Ski Beech, Myrtle Beach-Enough Said.

My brother bringing home Kristina home for the first time- I knew then she was going to be my sister.

Ridding in the Lincolnton Parade with my horse Shadow.

Taking care of Lalla, Lucy, & Lillie <3

Tractor Pulls

The smell of my mom cooking.

Sitting with Janelle, & Mandy watching our friends win State Champs playing WW.

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Eating Pizza & wathcing Walker Texas Ranger with my mom and grandma at the house in Washington.

Waking up in the middle of the night listening to the rain on the tin roof.

Winning Miss LC Most Photogenic, Miss LC First Runner Up, and Miss LCHS First Runner Up

MyLifeisGood.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise. <3

What You Feel Is What You Are & What You Are Is Beautiful

It really stings my butt to know that with the use of texting, emailing and IM its very easy for us to forget that there’s a real person with real feelings on the other end of the line. These things are great for keeping up with people in our lives but some lines should have been drawn a long time ago.

 Don't send a text, IM or email that you wouldn’t say in person, or at least over the phone. The feeling of anonymity, mixed with the technology provided, can make us feel very brave. That courage along with emotion lost in translation are just situations like the Titanic and the iceberg waiting to happen all over again. One more thing...texting, emailing and IM are not substitutes for phone calls or being in person.

Like I said, it stings but just realize that I can handle all of that along with the insecure, prone to idiocracies, punch-drunk on their games and just waiting for someone to save them. Because I refuse to settle for all of the nonsense is precisely why I am not another average cliché.

I have more to add but the sound of the rain on my sky light is drowning out my thoughts.
& I have prayed for rain WAY to long not to enjoy the sound of the pollen washing away mixed with answered prayers :)


Always & Forever,

Nise <3

Assassin- The Best They'd Ever Seen.

I work in the dead of night

When the world's quiet, no one is around

Track my moves, racing the yellow lights

To find the gate is open, she's waiting in the room

I just step on through
You get in, you get done and then you get gone

You never leave a trace, or show your face, you get gone

Should've turned around and left before the sun came up again. But the sun came up again

Enter the morning light

To find the day is burning the curtains and the wine

In a little white room

Though I'm not alone, her head is heavy on me

She's sleeping like a child

What could I do

You get in, you get done and then you get gone

You never leave a trace, or show your face, you get gone

Should've turned around and left before the sun came up again

But the sun came up again

I was a killer, was the best they'd ever seen

I'd steal your heart before you ever heard a thing

I'm an assassin and I had a job to do

Little did I know that girl was an assassin too

John Mayer

Always & Forever,

Nise<3

You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand. John 13:7

Today has been amazing..for more than one reason thats for sure.

The message at church was amazing to say the least. It reached me in more ways than one. Before I knew it tears were running down my face. I cannot describe the ways that I was touched- I just know that God is with me. That thought alone can bring me to tears.

I spent half of the afternoon watching The Blinde Side with mi madre, and the other half visiting truely amazing friends. My movie review-SUCH an amazing and strong story line. More than I could have picked from seeing the trailers.

Beth: You're changing that boy's life.

Leigh Anne Touhy: No. He's changing mine.

I agree with this statement on a day to day basis. I have wrote about this before but will hit on it again. I believe everyone in your life is there for a reason and the ones that come into your life are lessons and blessings from God himself. Everyone should be your mirror and you should constantly try to better yourself with the help of blessings and lessons learned. We dont understand reasons certain people come into our lives but just know it is not without reason and its Gods plan. Just as it was said in church today- "You can see God everyday-just open your eyes."

Little Idgie Threadgoode: "What if God made a mistake?"

Buddy Threadgoode: "Well the way I see it is He doesn't make mistakes. I mean, He made sure we got together, didn't He?"
Fried Green Tomatoes

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.