Because sometimes the only beauty you find is in the attempt...even with family.

Lets not ruin fun with the truth BUT...
I guess if this were a movie...it would have ended differently. But its not. This is not a fairy tale, and it's unbelievably disappointing that people with love at hand, countless blessings, and given effort have changed nothing. NOTHING. And I want to know who's to blame for that.

Sometimes I look back, and I'm hurt. I'm hurt by all of the shortcomings, and the lies that broke it all apart.

I guess all I can do at this point is let it go, pray, and write about it. Because life is unfair sometimes. You don't get what you give and in the end you end up burying expectations for your need for the way things used to be once upon a time...

but this is no fairytale.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

encumbered with definition

Most days in your life do not have a defining moment for the rest of your days...but there are in fact times " when a defining moment comes along, you can do one of two things. Define the moment, or let the moment define you."
- Tin Cup

Be mindful what you toss away, be careful what you push away, and think hard before walking away. Those are the defining moments when things change forever. Those moments are the moments you can never take back and sometimes those things can be the hardest to do, but the best thing in the end.

You shouldn't let anything stand in the way of your dreams, nothing is that important. When the dark days do come, and they will, just remember to not fear the darkness or the shadows...they mean a light is nearby.

Accept no one's definition of your life.

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise <3

Patience, Grace, & Strength

I fall into patterns - good and bad - with amazing ease and break out of them almost never. I have been like this since before I can remember because I find comfort in predictability. I'm a fairly predictable individual but even I didn't see this one coming.

In that picture you will find two happily lost girls. To the left- My Best Friend Mandy. To the Right- I will let you know when I find out ;)

I miss thoughs girls. We were fearless and we and treated each other the way you treat someone when you've decided you want them around for a long, long time. She is attractive, athletic, smart, funny, and ADD ALL THE WAY. For us, deciding and doing are two different things...and so are just knowing your strong and showing your strong. Choosing sucks, I get that. & my best friend did the one thing I never could. The one thing that to this day I still struggle to do...

she let go


"& so I pray for patience, grace, and strength to be happy. Mostly I pray for the strength to let go. That's the toughest part...letting go. That's the part of grace that really sucks."

& thats why my best friend has always been amazing :)

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise<3