It's not who you want to spend Friday night with, it's who you want to spend all day Saturday with.

Mr. Emotionally Unavailable, meet Ms. Emotionally Damaged.
A little cliche' but common.

Tommy: "You know what I discovered - it's not who you want to spend Friday night with, it's who you want to spend all day Saturday with...feel me Felix?"
Dylan: "Yeah, I get it Tommy."
Tommy: "Yeah, you don't. I'm out." (jumps in his boat)
Dylan: "You have a boat?!'
Tommy: "I live in Jersey, and I ain't taking no ferry - unless it's out to dinner and a show!"




Words of wisdom from Tommy, without question. Friday night: Slam Piece. Saturday All Day: Relationship.

Friends with Benefits.

ann anise

It seems like the simplest concept: just push them all away and you’ll never get hurt.

 

However, the simplest isn’t always the most effective.

Someday, somebody’s going to find their way in, and they’re going to leave you on your knees.

nise.

It may have just been a moment to you, but it changed every single one that followed for me. Ian Thomas

          A few things should be pointed out here, and I'm not saying any of these things because I have countless thoughts running through my head, although the multitude of thoughts are slowly driving me crazy, anyone would point out the same if they were the one in my shoes. By all means, try to follow this erratic writting session, but fair warning now.

          Learning a life lesson is never fun. Actually, it's about as much fun as if your parents took you to the county fair and made you sit from afar while you watched the other kids play. However, if the county fair was anything like the one in Lincolnton, you wouldn't have missed much. But that's beside the point.

          Trusting someone, anyone for that matter, after you have learned a few life lessons can seem like an act of Congress. No, I do not believe in making people in your present and future pay for the mistakes of the many who did not make it further than your past. However, that mantra can be hard to follow at times. 

          Recently, it has come to my attention that I know a good number of people but most never really touch me. The reason for that is because I do not let people get close enough to where they could hurt me. My wall is up 99.9% of the time, unless I find myself at a breaking point. At that moment, and only then, is when I choose to talk to family or a close friend about why my hardened heart has melted like a Hershey's candy bar left out in the sun on the hottest day of summer.

          I understand this is no way to act but up until recently, I never cared enough to even want to try and let someone in. I know you can't imagine it right now but rolling my eyes in sarcasm at the very thought of the quote, "& Then you meet that one person and your life is changed," was a daily thing. And just like anything else, that came back to bite me in the butt. Oh, the life lessons learned, on top of meeting someone by chance, plus that one random person changing your world, and in turn making your guard come tumbling down like the Berlin Wall, 1989.

ann anise.

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges. Joseph Newton

         My hair has been out of control...much like an eight-year-old boy who just rolled out of bed on Saturday morning. My mind? Of course, that was off in another area code. I was finally alone, sitting on the couch, and free to replay the last few weeks in my head as many times as my heart desired. At the risk of sounding or acting dumb, I wanted to make sure I had everything in perspective before I jumped into any conversation. At the chance the wrong someones might read this, I wont go into further detail. 

          To say it has been a trying few weeks would be the understatement of the year. However, I take comfort in knowing God watches over me, I have been through much worse, and He will never give me anything I can not handle. Even when I doubt my abilities, family and friends never do. That's peace of mind I carry with me daily. I will leave my feelings confined to this blog post, as I also did with the past month, and not look back.

nise.

You can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you. Audrey Hepburn

"Some peole come in your life for a lifetimeand some come for a season. You have to know which is which. I put everybody that comes into my life in the category of a tree. Some people are leaves on a tree. The wind blows, they go to the left. The wind blows from the other way, they go to the right. They are just unstable. You can't count on them for nothing. All they ever do is take from that tree. What you need to understand about a leaf is that it has a season. It'll wither and die and blow away.There ain't no need to be praying over a leaf to be resurrected. When it's dead it's gone. Let it go! Some people are like that. All the leaf ever does is cool you off every now and then. If you're grown, you know what I'm talking about, because you can call them in the middle of the night and get cooled off. That's the leaf people. They come to take. Then there are people like a branch. You got to be careful with branch people. They come in all different shapes and sizes. You never know how strong they will be in your life. So my advice is to tip out on it slowly. When you're going out on a limb, don't put too much weight on it at once, because it can fall and

leave you high and dry. Sometimes, you have to wait for a branch to grow up before it can hold all of the things you want to share with it. Finally, there are people who are like roots at the bottom of the tree. If you find yourself two or three people in your entire lifetime that are like the roots, then you are blessed. The roots don't care nothing about being seen. All they're there to do is hold that tree up, to make sure it stays in the air. It comes from the earth to give that tree everything it needs. That's what relationships should be about. That's what you need, people who want to be in your life for the right reasons. If somebody wants to walk out of your life, you've got to LET THEM GO! When you learn to love yourself, you will end up giving standards to everyone around you. Again, I repeat with emphasis, if they don't meet those standards, you have to let them go, because they might be a leaf. And forgive them with all your might."

ann anise

People have a habit of inventing fictions they will believe wholeheartedly in order to ignore the truth they cannot accept. Libba Bray

Each in her own way so brave, so determined, and so very desperate. Desperate to venture out, but afraid of what she'll miss when she goes. Desperate to get everything she wants, even when she's not exactly sure of what that is. Desperate for life to be perfect again, although she realizes it never really was. Desperate for a better future, if she can find a way to escape her past. Desperate Housewives

"She's not like that now. She knows better. She knows now that people lie, and promises can be broken as quick as they are made. She understands that she might never be loved, and too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out and grab them. She knows that you can't change or help time, so every now and then it will just run out. There isn't a place for everyone in the world, so if you're standing alone for awhile, that's why. Not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that's when it's the best. You can't always expect people to care, and even when your best friends stab you in the front, don't think for one minute that they didn't already aim for your back. They missed for a reason. She has found out to soon, that in the end, you are your own best friend . Everyone will be broken at some point in their life and more often than not, its gonna hurt like hell . But you can't stop it. You can't change Gods plan. Some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. You don't know what it is and when it happens, and it will hit you like a ton of bricks. Overtime, certain things no longer have an affect on you. And that happens because that's the way it supposed to be. But you'll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. It might catch you off guard and happen sooner than you think. I mean, ask her. She knows."

nise.

Needing was so easy: it came naturally, like breathing. Being needed by someone else, though, that was the hard part.

You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it's right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.

Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

          Why does everyone around me seem so certain? I'm not used to being the person confused about answers. However, this state of confusion is becoming more and more familiar as time passes. I frequently have feelings of certainty and clarity that quickly fade as I start to second guess myself. It frustrates me everyone around me can see what I desperately want to set my sights on.

         

          I try. Honestly, I do. I attempt to let my fears go but never fail to stand in my own way--even when I make a conscious effort to move out of my sunlight. Ultimately, I see what I want to see when I'm ready to see it. & when the time is right, I will stop trying over and over to fit a square peg into a round hole. The questions feel like 100lb weights I carry around every day.

ann anise.