What I Learned From 2010

People aren't dolls, you can't just play with them then put them back in their box. I want no less from anyone than what I'm prepared to give. Silence is HIGHLY underestimated.Trying to understand some people is like trying to light a candle in the rain. There are two types of people who will cut you down in this world: Those who are afraid to try themselves and those who are afraid that you will succeed. We gain power when we refuse to accept less than we deserve. God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them. Time may take away a moment, but memory will always bring it back. I know it feels like you have all these options and when you make a decision, you lose a world of possibilities. But the reality is, until you make a decision, you have nothing at all. But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. Romans 8:25-26. So many of us find ourselves thinking things were so great. Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did. You can either throw in the towel, or use it to wipe off your sweat. People like to label you. I've never like being labelled. I can't take it because I'm never going to do the same thing over and over and over. I hate being limited. I hate being put in a box. Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own.
Nise.

Happy New Years*

My world is changing. I'm rearranging. Does that mean Christmas changes too?

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Grey's Anatomy

Ann-Anise

You can either throw in the towel, or use it to wipe off your sweat.

Nostalgia - It’s a twinge in your heart far more powerful than memory alone. This device isn’t a spaceship, it’s a time machine. It goes backwards, and forwards… it takes us to a place where we ache to go again. It’s not called the wheel, it’s called the carousel. It let’s us travel the way a child travels - around and around, and back home again, to a place where we know are loved.

This describes how I feel today. Feeling the need to go back...back to that time. Maybe not to change anything but just to relive the moments. I feel like it was all a dream because nothing happens in real life the way it happened in those moments. Oh those memories, I think about them frequently.

Ann-Anise.

There's once in a lifetime and there's once in a while...& the difference between the two is about a million miles.

Ann-Anise.

They don't need to be reminded you're great

When you were a kid, it was Halloween candy. You hid it from your parents and you ate it until you got sick. In college, it was the heavy combo of youth, tequila and well, you know. As a surgeon, you take as much of the good as you can get because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. 'Cause good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing. Grey's Anatomy

So many of us find ourselves thinking things were so great. Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.

Ann-Anise.

Dry Spell...

Slack is not the word for my recent blogging habits. For now, I don't have a better word to replace it so slack will have to do. I have been writing so much for school, my creativity has hit a "dry spell." Know that when I say "dry spell"--I mean it. Like the old married couple who sleep in different rooms, I'm serious. Sitting on this computer and writing seems impossible after I work all day, go to school at night, and come home to walk Jade. I love writing, its always been something I'm good at. Because my blog has become an outlet for me and somewhat of an entertainment source for others, its hard to just give it up. I'm not doing away with my blog but be patient with me while I'm in my "dry spell." Oh, how I want my creativity back!

Ann-Anise.