A Like Letter- I Think Thats What I Like Best.

Dear You,

I didn't even realize you were on my mind until my phone lit up with your name. I smiled, and said to my empty bedroom, "Oh, hello you!"

I like how it's almost impossible for me to keep my emotions to myself while you're telling a story. I want to throw my hands in the air; one to cover my mouth and the other held out in front of me as if to say, Stop! You can't be serious! I like that we both cant help but smile when we look at each other.

"Only if you want to," I say.

"I do, but only if you want to"

"No sir, its up to you"

I like how I don't have to wonder -- or worry, for that matter -- where we're going. We both know its in Gods hands. Not many trust that. I'm proud of us; we're happy just being ourselves; and being ourselves works really great together.

I like how we can say ridiculous things and not be embarrassed. I like that I get to act like I'm living in a movie and you just continue to be the sweetest person. I like that you know the answers I don't, even if I have to pull them out of you. That you let me bust your chops, and you mine. That we grew up a lot, and now we get to be this.

I think maybe that's what I like best.

Like,

Me

The LORD will fight for you, you need only be still. Exodus 14:14

We've all been there, the days when you would rather beat your head against the wall than to deal with the reality of whats really going on around you. The fact that I have no control of the outcome, when the situation is about me, puts me under more stress. Still, not as much stress as the week to come. Here comes the waiting...oh joy! The past four days of my life have been this, and the adult world only offers promises of more of the same. Can't we just rewind to just a few days before when life was simple- when things just fell into place without effort? Because that's exactly what it was- effortless, because it fell into place like it was meant to be that way. Feeling sorry for yourself is not an option because it's horribly pointless. You're a big girl! BUT...There's always a but. For me, the emotional byproduct of the situation hasn't been feeling sorry for myself. No woe is me. Rather, it's been an intense feeling of missing, and not understanding. It's not gloomy out right now, which if it was, it would be the perfect backdrop for feeling nostalgic and for casting a perfectly rosy glow on a perfectly imperfect time in my life.

I'm okay with this because I have put things in Gods hands. Most of my prayers have been answered. Today in church I had another question answered, and in my heart I know...He alone knows the outcome, and soon enough I will have other answers I need. I put all of my trust in Him.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

Patience is trusting Gods timing. & His timing couldn't have been any more perfect for this situation

As I have stated before I try not to write about the current romantic climate of my life to protect my own interests. Omission saves relationships from too much scrutiny, spares the people themselves from being too aware of my tendencies to over-think, and it protects me from over-exposing a rare but sometimes too-tender heart. BUT for anyone to understand what I'm talking about I first have to say- I met the family.

I met most all of the family. Which I must say was a lot of fun, and I enjoyed myself.
Then the next day I met...the grandpa.
Now don't judge me by this topic but it made a big impression on me.
Some people will need a time line in order to understand or accept how I felt.
I guess I never thought it should matter if I knew this man five days, five years, or only for the five seconds it took for him to hug and kiss me in the same way my grandpa did years ago. It wasn't enough that he looked like my grandpa...he even hugged and kissed me the same way.
I was taken back- with a tinge of sadness; there doesn't have to be a reason or a number to justify that.

I was grandpa's doll. I was the first granddaughter- the one who rode on the tracker with him through the pastures. He bought me my first horse...just because I asked him to. I took his shoes and socks off every night after he came in from a long day. I was the one holding his right hand when he died. He was the only one I hugged around his neck and he gave me a kiss at the same time.

up until that moment.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

Be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead! I Peter 1:6

This would be my sister-in-law/best friend Kristina. & This is also the woman that will be making me an AUNT 2/2011. I'm so happy to announce my best friend that married my brother 3/2010 is now having a baby!

Yes > that would be the first sign of the newest addition to the family. I'm so excited :)

The fact that my brother has a child on the way is so far out, I can hardly stand it. He will be a great, if absurd, daddy. I assume that has a great deal to do with his wife's firm and loving touch.

Our family is blessed.

"Be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead!"

-I Peter 1:6

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

I'll say a prayer with every heart beat

Twenty Five Random Facts

1. My life revolves around God, my family, my friends, figure skating, my job, school, the lake, and good times :)

2. Currently it is overcast on Memorial Day Weekend & it SUCKS

3. I wish I still had my Camaro that I murdered a few years ago.

4. My dog snores and barks so loud in her sleep she wakes me up all the time during the night.

5. I just got off the phone with my new sister Kristina- she is my other half.  

6. The best most baddest assed rock came from the 90's. Stop it you know it did.

7. I don't smoke or drink- most everyone that finds that out asks why...I don't understand that.

8. I don't like to spend the night with friends- I cant get any sleep.

9. I paid off my BMW one week ago :)

10. I love my job more than most people know. I get to work with some of the smartest & funniest people around.

11. Ignorance is bliss.

12. I spend most every Sunday going to church and spending the day with my family.

13. Wake boarding is my summer love.

14. Most people don't impress me. I know they have just as many problems as I do...if not more. But if for some reason you do...ill keep you close.

15. I overestimate people too often, and underestimate myself.

16. I'm a very busy person- people mistake this as a blow off-but its just the truth.

17. I find myself praying all the time. I know this will make a difference...in every ones life including my own.

18. I Google everything...EVERYTHING.

19. I miss my little cousins so much. They are continuing to grow into beautiful young women- and I'm not around to see it or influence it.

20. I get up at least four times a night on average to pee.

21. I think Whitney Houston's crackhead ass has one of the most beautiful singing voices. "How will I know if he really loves me? I'll say a prayer with every heart beat." oooo OO OOOoooo

22. I love being so settled and content with my happiness

23. Giving figure skating lessons makes me so happy, and makes me feel like I'm making a difference.

24. I work with my mom, and I'm always around my brother Daniel, and Kristina. We're all so close.

25. And last but most certainly not least, whenever I meet people and start to talk to them I ask a million questions. Life amazes me, and how other people see it does more. I always have a question to ask.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

You Make It Real For Me by James Morrison

This is a random post full of questions from a Note I found on facebook.

What bill do you hate paying the most?

It used to be my car payment-until I paid it off last week. Now its my house payment.

Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?

Ummm.......hang on......wait......wait for it.....
HA! Yeah its been so long I dont remember.

What do you really want to be doing right now?

Maybe having that romantic dinner im lacking haha

Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?

It was the first one hanging in my closet.

What were you doing before this?

I was out running with Jade.

First thought when the alarm went off this morning?

Its too early for this nonsense.

Last thought before going to sleep last night?

Who knows. Probably alot of things considering the person I was on the phone with before I fell asleep.

Do you miss being a child?

I miss simplicity. Although I don’t resent becoming an adult. I’m ready to keep going... my time for being a child is done.

What errand/chore do you despise?

I hate to vacuum- that thing is as big and weighs as much as I do & Im supposed to push it all around the house. Why would I enjoy that?

Get up early or sleep in?

It depends on how much sleep I had or how much energy I expended the day before.

What famous person would you like to have dinner with?

 Brad Pitt- haha dont judge me

Have you ever crashed your vehicle?

Yes. I murdered my Camaro. RIP...

Do you go to church?

Yes, & I love it.

At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?

I love my job. I work the some of the most amazing people. A new relationship? As long as its a real, honest, truly comfortable one-yes.

Do you have a go to person?

I have a select few people I can always go to about anything

Are you where you want to be in life?

Philippians 4:11-13

I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength

 Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons?

The good Saturday morning ones. Which translated into Looney Tunes and other various, similar cartoons.

What about you do you think has changed the most?

Since when?? Ultimately I guess I’d say my freedom and maturity of thought, although my tendency to think in general is not really much different than it ever was. My understanding of life and people has changed tremendously.

Looking back at high school, were they the best years of your life?

I hope not. I wasnt a fan of high school at all I hope that I have many more amazing years ahead of me to look forward to.

Who do you think impacted your life the most?

God.

Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise.

About as useful as a white crayon.

I picked the wrong time to come back to Augusta from Lincolnton. I forgot about the fishing tournament going on this weekend at WildWood. This would be Jade & I sitting in bumper bumper traffic between WildWood and Pollards Corner. We were both annoyed-haha

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Always & Forever,

Ann-Anise